Some of us are so used to keeping things to ourselves that we don't realise juts how much things we have bottled up.
We listen to others saying, you shouldn't be sad, you shouldn't overthink, you should be strong, you should respect others, you should do this, you should do that, you should focus on your career......on and on.
But tell me, is that not something I'm good enough to understand from my surroundings? do I not know I need to run in this rat-race to keep up with others? Do I not know I shouldn't overthink and not be sad?

But is it my damn choice ? Do I desire to be sad? Do I want to keep overthinking everything to the point that my own mind scares me? Is it my choice to fall down, get betrayed, and not be as good as others ?
How can someone ever tell you do something when they have no idea about the hell you are experiencing?
Not everyone is Einstein.
Not all of us are born geniuses.
Not all of us are a ball of happiness. Some of us are just dealing with things that others can't even imagine.

#random #vent

If you think eyes are key to someone's heart,
If you think eyes hide it all, what's unsaid.
Then have a look in those hearts,
Who hide it all in their smile.
You'll never know what they're going through,
They will never show, what's beyond you

~@Nyx_thinks

#random #Atuneofbrokenhearts. #shortPoetry

《All I Want 》

I'm a little lost ,
Please hold my hand ,
Show me the light ,
But do not pretend.
I don't want to live in lies ,
Even though I want to wander the light blue skies.

I will be happy ,
and I will be sad .
If you can endure me,
Then only join my band .

I may not be perfect ,
I may not be the best,
But I'll always walk beside you ,
And stand by you in life's test .

Fly me to the Moon,
let me show you wonders .
I'll be your sun ,
And heal your asunders .

Let's sit at the rooftop ,
In the middle of the night .
Talk about life ,
And the beautiful blue skies .

I'll be yours ,
You'll be mine ,
I don't want more than someone,
Who can see my broken pieces combine.

~@Nyx_thinks


#longpoetry

"If I'm willing to be your moon, than I want you to be my sky. I can light up your shadows in your darkest times, but I want you to let me shine.
If I can read your silence than you can read my numb eyes.
I can be the moon at night, you can be the sun of mine.
I'll be there to see you glow, we can help each other grow.
I'm here, always be here beside you,
I'm writing this to let you know."

Oh love of mine, look what we have become. Oh love of mine, look how far we have come."

~@Nyx_thinks

#unbound

Image Credits : Purple Hyacinth.

"I tried saving the world but then I got bored"

"Faling into abyss is an easy task.
It doesn't need you to do lots of work or achieve something, your mind does all the work. The self-hate you create, the feeling of not knowing what is wrong with you, Still not being able to feel anything.
It's easier to blame it all on yourself, when things that were supposed to work out well, don't go that way. It's easier to avoid thinking about the bad memories than to face it. It's not like you aren't aware of what is right thing to do. It's the excruciating pain we face when we confront our ownselves that scares us.
It's okay to feel this way. It's okay to not be fine and it's okay if you aren't able to feel anything. The warmth that you need is something only you can give to yourself. So take your time and deal with it one by one. You can feel like a corpse some days but the dawn will be a lot rewarding."

"If life is an art ...then I surely am not the artist. Even though this portrait is mine, this canvas is mine to draw , but it feels like someone else is painting it and I am helpless."

@Nyx_thinks

#Atuneofbrokenhearts. #agony

Music Freaks.

"If I'm strong enough to lighten up someone else darkest hour, than I'm brave enough to paint my own sky and adorn it with my stars.

After all, I'm myself a universe full of exploding emotions."

~@Nyx_thinks

"If I ever didn't came back , just know :
My soul is at peace rather than in pieces. I have given up my humanity. My desire to feel that fleeting emotion called love. I can't feel a single thing. I don't see a single ray of hope in this darkness I have been lying in from years. There lies a monster under this facade I put up everyday which is eating me from inside. Making me hollow. I'm no longer Human.

Have I become the devil itself ?"

~@Nyx_thinks


Try reading 'No Longer Human' By Dazai Osamu. It's a great Psychological read.

#random

And you are Brave !!
Dear Stranger

"How do you not Self-Sabotage?"

"I found love, not in the great aesthetic ways that the world describes. I found love in the way someone never left me even after I was at my worst. I found love in the way someone accepted me when I was not ready to accept myself. I found love in the moments someone sat beside me and rubbed my back while I cried myself to sleep in their arms. I found love in the scoldings of my mother, the taunts of my siblings, the not so funny jokes of my father and the little times I spend with strangers. I found love in the thought that even my own reflections in the mirror tries to smile when it sees me crying. I found love in myself.

Do you always need a particular someone to love you or prove it to you ? Can't love be found in little things and your own self?"

~@Nyx_thinks.

#littlestories #selflove #thinking

《 Dreamy 》

I'm afraid to loose you ,
Afraid to see you leave .
The feeling of being abandoned,
From the one and only you seek.

I remember last summer ,
When we spent the vacation together .
Oh , did I tell you ,
I would die for that smile of yours .

The love in your eyes ,
Is enough to absorb all the hate I have been through,
The world maybe cruel ,
But I seek the kindness in you .

Oh ,
How selfish of me ,
To write about you without you knowing,
Cause I can't muster up the courage to look in your eyes .

Your memories are the treasure,
I keep safe in the depths of my heart .

Look ,
My hands are shaking ,
My heart is racing ,
As I admire you in my thoughts .

~@Nyx_thinks


#longpoetry #Memories

"I have put up this facade for so long, that I can't even remember myself without it. I been strong for so long that it's hard to breakdown to feel at ease."

~To an unidentified part of us that we never want others to see.

~©️Nyx_thinks

#random

"Not every pain and suffering can be described in words. Some are just left unsaid, they are inexpressible, still enough to crush the person who is holding it.
Afterall the noises in your head are loudest when the surroundings get silent."


~@Nyx_thinks
#Atuneofbrokenhearts #thinking

《 Sakura 》

The winds are strong,
As if searching for something,
The leaves are falling,
Back to where they belong.

People are awestruck,
Forgotten in it's beauty,
It's smells sweet,
Sometimes tart, Sometimes fruity.

If I change the perception,
Are they crying or are they happy?
Trees are shedding as if a snake changing skin,
I'm sitting here thinking if it's my akin.

Let me just sit here admiring,
The Fall of Sakura 🌸🌸


~@Nyx_thinks


I know it's not the time of the year for the fall, but was just thinking, so I scribbled it down.
For those who don't know : Sakura Refers to Cherries, and fall of Sakura refers of Cherry Blossom.


#random #scribble

"And I demand to know, how much? How much more should I sacrifice of my ownself to see you satisfied? To make everyone else happy?"

~@Nyx_thinks
#agony #deepthoughts